I am turning 23 in 5 days and I am inexplicably agitated.
Another year is getting ripped off my body clock, and I feel a crazy milieu of emotions--I guess it's the way it is for everyone, right? Remorse for all the wrong decisions, jubilation for all the things done right, anger for everything that turned real sh**ty, and a big fat question mark for everything else-yep, sounds like birthday nerves to me.:)
I still don't know where things are going. There are too many uncertainties, but in the very least I am still here, alive and kicking, and that should be something worth being REALLY thankful for.
In the spirit of all things celebratory, here are 23 things I would want (material and not)for this year.
23- a bucket of fried chicken. yeah, you know that's never absent!
22- a new phone. my p990i is slowly dying from torture (unfortunately i am not one to be trusted with gadgets in terms of care)
21- a good book cuz i should catch up with my reading. preferably something from Cormac McCarthy
cannot wait to see the movie either...
20- anything sequined. leggings or a blazer in jet black. need the razzle dazzle without looking too disco..
this sequined blazer on Lauren Santo Domingo will seriously haunt my dreams tonight...
19- Zana's body harnesses... or a way to make my own version of something to this effect.. i'm literally frying in jealousy:(
want. need. drool. crave
18- a professional make up kit
17- need a body form. badly. today.
16- yes, because i really want to polish my sewing somehow. i still really want to make unique one-offs for myself and friends/family. do i plan to sell eventually? nope. maybe. depends.
wouldn't you wish you had a compact Hello Kitty sewing machine too?!
15- more DIYs! I do have a ton planned, so just hang on in there!:)
14- a netbook. as i am a proud commuter, i need something a little bit more discreet. any suggestions? i'm partial to the HP Mini though...
HP Mini.. you'll be mine this month or the next..
13- my own pair of Nicholas Kirkwoods. there is no other designer shoe brand i covet more than his. yep, this is where the "dream" portion of my wish list kicks off...
Nicholas Kirkwood is the sh*t
12- though on second thought, i also extremely desire to have my own cage heels. need to find a good and definitely more affordable "version" of these babies...
11- i need a VACATION desperately. it doesn't have to be anywhere fancy, really. just plop me in a beach somewhere and i'm all set:)
to wake up to this in the morning is just divine
10- i need to give back. i'm not wealthy or anything, but its just good to help in any which way possible with whatever means we have. i'm thinking WorldVision.
"GIVING BACK IS THE NEW BLACK" Hell to the yes!
9- a dress! i'm not soo much of a dress person, and i know someone's bound to give me one this year, so MOM, if you're reading this, something along this line would be fine by me:
The Alexander Wang dress that wouldn't die and Kimberly Ovitz's fall 2009... nothing else would do. lol
8- the ability to give up fatty food. i know it shortens my lifespan eatng all that fried chicken and meat, so this should most def be in my resolution this year. sadly. (but let me have my bucket just for my birthday pretty please)
7- more friends to speak Deutsch with, for practice! (btw, many props to Dane and Haute Shopper for their help!)
6- the perfect deconstructed tee. we know how important THIS is..
Elizabeth and James... the intentional hole is genius
5- better health of course. giving up on unnecessary weekend binge drinking, inhaling secondhand smoke, the works (but again, let me have this just for my party. please!:P)
4- deeper friendships with REAL friends (not those who screw you over the first opportunity they have)
3- a deeper bond with my family. awwwww. because of my usually hectic schedule i have somehow pushed this back, but im quickly making up for it. at least trying to
2- to get settled in? lol no. not this year i guess. just thankful that everything with the boyf is stable for now:)
1- inner peace, a better sense of self, and a deeper spiritual existence. we ALL want this. its always just a matter of how and when.
So there! I still don't know how different this year would be, but i'm just grateful about a lot of things. No use dwelling over what sucks, right?
And yes, exciting news! Because i do want to "give back" for my big 23, Chic in the Tropics is tying up with ChickDowntown.com for a major giveaway! Will announce the details and contest rules on the 20th (actual birthday) so please keep posted. Thanks and much love!
